Firstly, I would like to express my sincere thanks to anyone who has read any of my posts over the year and a half-ish I’ve been doing this. I started this blog in Sept 2015 because, like many other gamers, I wanted to ramble about video games on the internet. A small part me had hoped that maybe my writing was good enough for someone ‘professional’ to acknowledge, but I mostly just wanted to express my unqualified gaming opinions online, to whoever cared. I’ll be honest here, the majority of my views are from bots trying to tell me how I can make “$500 from home easily!” (God, I wish that was possible, but nope, I’m not following those links to your key logger sites). There are also far more talented bloggers out there reviewing the science behind video games, something I have no business in trying to write. Here’s where I’m going with this:
It is with great indifference that I declare my video game backlog the winner, and I wave my white flag in defeat to the almighty backlog boss monster. What does this mean? Well, my old blogging handle “Conquering the Gaming Backlog” has reached a Game Over screen after my evil backlog delivered a 9999k critical hit to it. I no longer have any desire to select Continue. Over the past month, I’ve been forcing myself to do those “Weekly Wrap-Up” posts but I had no real interest in writing them. I no longer care about my mountain of unplayed games. I’ll get to them whenever I feel like it, and I’m going to have fun playing whatever the hell I want, or nothing at all. Lately, I just haven’t been enjoying writing blog posts, or even playing video games like I once did. It just feels like I’m adding noise to the chorus of great game reviews and intelligent techy video game talk online, and there are so many depressing things going on in the real world. Don’t get me wrong, I still love reading everyone’s posts, but I’ve really been hating mine lately.
Most of the gaming communities I’ve seen online are toxic cesspools of hatred. Angry fanboys/girls constantly wage ignorant flame wars against each other’s narrow viewpoints on ‘all-important’ video game IPs. The community I’ve been blessed to be a part of here on WordPress is different. I’ve met so many awesome people here who have made me feel like I’m a part of something, for the first time in my life (special shout outs to The Shameful Narcissist, Evil Wizard Esq., The Otaku Judge, Cheap Boss Attack, Hungrygoriya, Mr. Panda, The Well-Red Mage, Beal, Athena, and a Professional Moron. Thank you all for putting up with me for so long, and for always brightening my days with your entertaining posts and comments). I don’t mean to sound overly dramatic, but there’s another side of me that’s itching for an outlet: my inner wannabe writer.
My whole life I’ve been that quiet one nobody understood. While I may appear quiet on the outside, my brain is constantly buzzing with thoughts, all while I contain a thunderstorm of emotions no one ever sees, until I explode occasionally. I say few words IRL and I rarely feel a connection with other humans. This blogging thing has given me a release for that chaotic storm inside of me. Video games have always been my escape mechanism from the messed up world of ours, but writing words down has turned into a much needed lightning rod for my chaotic inner dialog (pun definitely intended).
And so my point after all that is: I’m going to take a different route with my blog ramblings. I slapped a fresh coat of paint on this eyesore, changed up my domain name, and updated my About Me page (spoiler: I added some stuff about Lightning). I’m going to write about whatever I want, whenever I want to. This will give me some space to explore other topics, if I want. Though I admit this will probably still be mostly me rambling about video games (they make up 99% of my life honestly).
Truthfully, I have no idea what I’m talking about, or any idea why I didn’t just hit the “Delete Blog” button. Nevertheless, I’m going to start having fun writing words in this blog again, instead of just chasing silly goals of clearing X number video games by X date. My sarcastic comments on various great blogger sites will continue as per normal, without any interruption.
Thank you so much to anyone who continues to follow this mess, haha. 🙂